Recently, I found a blog that really inspired me to get going and take action with what I want to do in life. If you ever want a good read, check out Mark Manson’s blog here:
I found his blog when I retreated to my thoughts and started wondering (again) what I wanted to do with my life. Yes, I realize my blog now consists of way too many diary-like posts about my pursuit of happiness (sorry not sorry). Personally, I am a pretty self-conscious person who likes being validated by other people. Manson really taught me to stop and to start realizing that reaching the worst humiliation will only make you a better person. As a person who’d like to hide from all types of embarrassment, his words were awful to read…but they really made sense.
I guess it’s the fact that I am challenging myself to take a communications class next semester at my university that is making me want to face my deepest weakness- stage fright. Whenever I speak in front of groups of people, I totally blank out. Even if I try to remember, my head starts buzzing to the point where I cannot think. How bad is that…
Taking this communications class might be the worst mistake of my next semester life, but I truly want to believe that forcing myself to do this will only help me in the long run. I’ve become tired of always wanting to hide when, on the inside, I have so much to say. Everyone says that most likely everyone else in the class will be feeling the way I do, but that kind of advice really doesn’t help me at all.
I’ve only recently discovered that self-realization- knowing my weaknesses and strengths- will help me face my fears. So, I’m going to do it. (but watch me come back next semester and start ranting about my stupidity in choosing this class).
Anyways, I’ve also made a promise to myself to write at least three times a week, even if the posts I create are unimportant and full of unsubstantial writing. A fact about me is that I really hate being lazy. I guess it’s part of the whole self-realizing thing I went through this year that made me want to start living life. So, here I go. First post of the week.
Thanks for reading,
Roseann
(originally published December 11, 2016)
